Confusion ! Diallema ! Getting out of it ! Is an Enigma...at least for me.

The greatest problem I face in my life is when I have to take a crucial decision in my life. Decisions which decide where I will head to in future.And the greatest hurdles which come up are - will the path you choose is of your interest or not, will it be paying or not(if its career related) or the decision will make you happy or not(ones related to love lives). You start evaluating the pros and cons of the same(In my case the Heart just pumps the blood in my body to keep me alive and its just my one and only brain that does the thinking job for me). And what happens generally is that both paths you have ahead of you have strong positives and negatives. You are totally perplexed! Its then you reach out to your near and dear ones of yours for help. So the problem becomes gigantic all the more. Everyone comes up with different views and suggestions. All the more everyone seems correct on their part. Therefore your mind starts wobbling to and fro as you talk to one person and the other. Whether to go for this way or that way. In the course of this you forget what you really wanted and the whole world seems to be a completely messed up puzzle. And you wish you were dead, a better solution to come out of this deadlock.

Looking ahead in future could solve the problem but no one has managed to do so yet. Even I don't believe in palmistry or taro cards prediction(though I admit reading daily horoscope is fun).

I remember a incident from my first year at college -- ALA club of which I was a member(now abandoned) had taken up a task of preparing a Diwali collage for the college notice board. We had prepared a huge DIYA with sparkles coming out of the flame. And each flame had some forecasts on the basis of Zodiac signs...which obviously were forged and were crap even in comparison to the newspaper ones. For example --- "VIRGO : The back bencher's will have to face the wrath of the teachers this week but will earn them attention from girls".Still the feed back we found was positive and people used to associate themselves with it.
It was difficult to believe !!! But its true !!!

So coming back to the topic again. It becomes very difficult to take a decision as its a crucial one. This is exactly the case with me these days. On one front I have an MBA option in Oil & GAS from UPES (you haven't heard it right...its a mid level college). And on other front have a job at SAP LAB's (on contractual mode of employment). Both of the choices are equally fraught with uncertainty...recession has added a spice to it. If I go for MBA there which is a segregated sector may or may not have scope in future but the jobs are well paying if you fight your way into it. But with it also all my entrepreneurial dreams shall be shattered even before they germinate. But the job is low paying and is also uncertain in recession times. Still if I go with this option and it turns out to be a wrong one, its repairable. I can definitely recover and shoot back again.

It was good when my parents used to take decisions in of my life and I could follow them blindly. As it was till I took admission in Graduation. But its out of their scope now.

Therefore, I have to take my chances now.
So All the very best to you Ashish! Go ahead man. Face the blow.

And The Rat Race Begins !

Hey! Have you read 'Rich Dad Poor Dad' by 'Robert Kiyosaki'. If not - do so...but if you already have... you should remember the situation when both the kids go to meet the Rich Dad who was then sitting in his cabin scolding and shouting at his employees and some other employees waiting to see him. So, the two little poor chap had to wait for him. He had gone there demanding for a raise and he believed that he has been exploited and bursts into tears. Rich dad finds it normal as he had joined the league of his other employees in less than a month. Unsatisfied, feeling exploited and asking for a raise.

The same thing went through my mind when I was about to receive my first salary. I was standing outside the cabin of our director and the owner of the institute. Along with me were other employees too, grunting and cursing and mocking at the management. It was though a memorable moment for me as I were to receive the 'first salary' of my life. Even I was made to wait a long(like that poor child) stating some engagements as excuse instead knowing that I shall wait what-so-ever. I felt then that I have to be at the other side of the court some years down the line(still waiting for that auspicious time to come).

O! GOOD! GREAT! ALMIGHTY! LORD HELP ME GET THERE!

If I go on to  implore the things at my end, I have a rich and a poor dad too. My uncle, the rich one hasn't had much of schooling and the standard up to which he has studied is not known to me even. Still he happens to be the most successful and admired one...rather my role model I would say. While the other one has all the degrees and certificates which aren't of any use now. I'd take the safest way though...the middle path, an equal balance of both the things. 

"An excerpt from Rich Dad Poor Dad"

(I love this book)

"Today, the most dangerous advice you can give a child is `Go to school, get good grades and look for a safe secure job,' " he likes to say. "That is old advice, and it's bad advice. If you could see what is happening in Asia, Europe, South America, you would be as concerned as I am."

 It's bad advice, he believes, "because if you want your child to have a financially secure future, they can't play by the old set of rules. It's just too risky."

I asked him what he meant by "old rules?" .

"People like me play by a different set of rules from what you play by," he said. "What happens when a corporation announces a downsizing?"

"People get laid off," I said. "Families are hurt. Unemployment goes up."

"Yes, but what happens to the company, in particular a public company on the stock exchange?"

"The price of the stock usually goes up when the downsizing is announced," I said. "The market likes it when a company reduces its labor costs, either through automation or just consolidating the labor force in general."

"That's right," he said. "And when stock prices go up, people like me, the shareholders, get richer. That is what I mean by a different set of rules. Employees lose; owners and investors win."

Robert was describing not only the difference between an employee and employer, but also the difference between controlling your own destiny and giving up that control to someone else.

This is  what exactly is happening in the contemporary scenario. The companies which are laying off the largest number of its employees are IT firms which have been always been into profits despite the recession quarter by quarter. They also have managed to bag a number of projects as well. 

 

This is what I waited for...

So wipro came up with its joining date..Yippeee...!!!

But Alas! this no longer makes me happy anymore. Still feel cheated and raped by the HR policies they have come up with. They too have a business to sustain and have to meet their bottom lines. So, no issues with the what they come up with.

I want to be at the givers end now...as Wipro has been and others around me are at present...who have supported me. I Want to do something of my own now...But still do not know how to talk it out with my near and dear ones. And my education which trained me for the challenges in IT sector shall go to waste-bins and also the years put into it...but I feel its all I want to do...yet do not have a clear picture what I will head to if I really do. God help me! I know I wont be satisfied with the job in IT domain...and there ain't much money in the field as well. So I conclude that its a wrong path I am heading on to.Still people are of the view that I should go for a job and all. OK then let me give it a shot as well for a few months...will take a call then.

Crystallize your goals. Make a plan for achieving them and set yourself a deadline. Then, with supreme confidence, determination and disregard for obstacles and other people's criticisms, carry out your plan. 

-Paul Meyer

Huh...life isn't easy nor seems to be beautiful at this time! Success shall make it so!